Too many tears
The blog has been sparse lately because I cannot bring myself to write about the dramas that’s been unfolding. I have had to move house. My nearest and dearest has packed up his life in the two bedroom unit we shared and moved back to Canberra. I now live alone in a one bedroom apartment in the Melbourne CBD. It’s a nice apartment, but filled with my feelings of loneliness and emptiness. The some 700 km distance makes my heart ache – a twisted sick feeling like I’ve been punched in the stomach and want to vomit. I toss and turn in the queen sized bed we once shared, now too large and empty for my small frame, and end up weeping into my pillow as sleep evades me every night.
He told me that this will only be temporary, but I cannot see a perfect resolution in the near future, perhaps not even in this year. So since the distance between us can’t be reduced, I can only hope that the sorrow and pain will ease soon, because even I’m getting sick of myself. And that’s not good, considering now all I have is myself.
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Comment by Annerose — June 4, 2007 @ 5:46 am